then again, i meet another big wall to be faced.
after a while i leave it like that, just because i am not ready to answer it,
hoping it would gone by itself,
but then it comes to me right away, with certainty, which i cannot run anymore.
they need my answer clearly, thoroughly, confidently.
not a shameless confidence, nor pitiful answer.
faced it, or leave it!
face with full of responsibility.
or retreat nobly.
somehow i feel that this wall is too big, and the slope is very dangerous.
it’s not just climb and finish,
but once i climb, i cannot return anymore.
beside i don’t really know what lies behind this wall, because of my stupidity.
is it really a way to go to the goal?
or is it just a useless wall, that’s not really necessary to face it.
should i detour, find another way that much more feasible?
even for that choice, i don’t really understand too what lies ahead..
they always come to our life..
i cannot face this life alone, without Your guidance.
إِيَّاكَ نَعْبُدُ وَإِيَّاكَ نَسْتَعِينُ
اهْدِنَا الصِّرَاطَ الْمُسْتَقِيمَ
صِرَاطَ الَّذِينَ أَنْعَمْتَ عَلَيْهِمْ غَيْرِ الْمَغْضُوبِ عَلَيْهِمْ وَلَا الضَّالِّينَ